Overwhelmed by Assignment
Its been a few weeks of planning, organizing, and enemy attacks. And its been hard. And I am weary.
Yet is in this moment I am reminded that God gives strength to the weary, so He is with me now.
I launched this site one month ago, at the very beginning of August. I also launched into my first year of homeschooling, at the very beginning of August. I quickly fell face down crying out, “Lord what have I done!”
Ever found yourself there, in that place of doing what you really want to do but so overwhelmed you think you’ll never make it?
As I sat there feeling overwhelmed I realized that I had just taken on two major life assignments: spreading the Gospel and raising three children of the King. I paused in that moment and tripped over the fear. I am not good enough for even one of those tasks. There is no possible way I will be successful at either job. I have no idea what I am doing or how to do it.
And that is where the attack began.
I became paralyzed, allowing the long struggle of depression and anxiety flare up like a wild-fire: because I couldn’t do everything I chose to do nothing. I stopped writing, stopped teaching, and stopped reading. It was a full on break down!
And that is where God spoke.
In the hours of my breakdown I felt empty and useless. But the voice of my husband reminded me that I have beaten this before and I will do it again because God is on my side. He reminded me that the enemy is attacking viciously because I am embarking on a journey that will stomp him to the ground. And if I press on, not only will I be able to manage my assignments but I will be blessed throughout them.
I once heard Lysa TerKeurst say that as Christians we need to “Stay in Alignment with our Assignment.” (In fact, her book The Best Yes is pretty much about that. ) This time of walking in the valley has helped me to realign so that I can complete my assignments. I know what He has asked of me, and as I walk down this path I do so in the encouragement that he is with me.
Feeling overwhelmed by your assignment today? Afraid you are not going to make it? Comment below so that we can pray with and for you.
And take comfort in this: “The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.” Psalm 29:11
2 Comments
Lisa
Hi Stacy! This is quite an endeavor. It sounds like God is teaching you to lean on Him more and on yourself less. You can’t do it, not without Him. I’ve walked some distance in your shoes. Feeling weary. Feeling inadequate. Sometimes defeated. As much as I felt knocked down, I always got back up, often stronger than before. And I give God all the credit for that. Homeschooling presents its own set of challenges. But doesn’t everything? If you sent your child to school, that would be challenging in other ways. And you would, at some point, feel weary, inadequate, and defeated. God meets us where we are and He rewards us for our obedience. I wish you many blessings.
Stacy
Thank you for the encouragement, Lisa. Indeed He is teaching me that I must lean in more and more, because I can do all things through His strength and not my own. And its always good to know that we are not alone- we all walk through things and there is always someone who is on the other side to reach out and say, “keep going, sweet sister.”
I pray He meets you, and all of us, right where we are today.
Stacy